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[timebethine]

A few days' recovery have left Laertes feeling refreshed enough to return to his baking, although not quite ready to dive into anything particularly complicated. Thus, he abandons the more complex direktørsnegl recipe he'd been meaning to try in favor of perfecting the humble cinnamon roll.

The days are getting shorter--even Laertes can feel it, though his sense of time is poor. He can no longer rely on the sunrise to wake him at a decent hour for baking, and so today he's up a little before the sun, kneading the bready dough by hand rather than using the paddle of the stand mixer in the hopes that the physical exertion will wake him up a little. It's not working particularly well; his eyelids keep drooping.

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[quote_gentle_unquote]

"I've read several plays from my future this past week," Susan says, and shakes her head. "Some are quite... brazen." Her lips quirk. "Which isn't to say that olden plays haven't been brazen, I suppose."

[timebethine]

"Oh? Brazen, how?" He scoops an over-easy egg onto a plate.

[quote_gentle_unquote]

"Oh," Susan says, gesturing loosely. "Absolutely chock full of sex."

[timebethine]

"In plays? To be performed on the stage? What a time of wonders lies ahead!"

[quote_gentle_unquote]

"I believe it's simulated, at best."

[timebethine]

"Oh--well, I suppose that makes sense," says Laertes, and cracks another egg into the pan.

[quote_gentle_unquote]

She explains, "It's still rather more than I'm used to seeing, in plays."

[timebethine]

"I've heard of private performances that go further, but never public," says Laertes thoughtfully. "Traveling performers at times have that reputation."<sup>1

1</sup> Times being what they are.

[quote_gentle_unquote]

"Fascinating," says Susan, frank, as she works through imagining what that must be like to behold. She rather thinks that she'd enjoy it. "If there's anything like that where I come from, I've not heard of it."

[timebethine]

"What new plays hast thou read that simulate the act?" Laertes asks, since apparently they're just having this conversation at 7:30 in the morning while cooking breakfast.

[quote_gentle_unquote]

"Well, for example, there are a number of musicals that feature song and dance about sex acts and include stage directions regarding which to depict," says Susan - who has decided to blame her lack of caffeination for descending into this topic. She flips the kettle back on so she can refresh her tea.

[timebethine]

"Sex set to music! Truly, the future is a parade of marvels," laughs Laertes. "But then, I suppose I should not be startled by it; after all, did not Catullus pen the immortal words, 'I'll fuck you like a boy and wreck your mouth'?"

[quote_gentle_unquote]

"Did he!" Susan checks the time again, and then eases the oven door open to peek at the biscuits. Nearly there, just a minute or so longer. "I clearly have some crucial gaps in my education."

[timebethine]

"He also wrote, 'Sweet, my life, you offer love to me; this love we hold between us shall last eternally.' He knew at least as much of sentiment as obscenity," says Laertes as he turns the second egg onto its plate. There's only the toast to make, now, and his rolls are nearly done rising. By the time Susan's biscuits are done, he'll be able to pop them in the oven. "He hath not Sappho's spear of eloquence, but his poetry was a great comfort to me, in my youth."

[quote_gentle_unquote]

"If I might ask, what first drew you to his work?"

[timebethine]

"My tutor gave me a book of poems to copy, when I was a youth," says Laertes. "He set it for me as an exercise, to teach me Latin and patience both--but I think he knew that I was on the cusp of manhood, and wanted a channel for all the raging feelings of fury and desire in me. Catullus showed me that poetry could be such a channel."

[quote_gentle_unquote]

Susan considers this as she takes the biscuits from the oven and sets the tray on the counter to cool. Then, fiercely, with her back to him: "It's good that he did that."

[timebethine]

"Didst not have a channel for thy passions?" Laertes asks softly. "Art seeking one still?"

[quote_gentle_unquote]

"Oh, I stumbled my way into one," Susan says. "With some trial and error." She turns back to face him, setting the towel she used to protect her hands from the heat of the biscuit tray aside. "You're an elder brother. Did you ever find yourself - oh, secondary to your own care and concern for your sister?"

[timebethine]

Laertes takes the opportunity to slide his own rolls into the oven, then sets the timer for twenty-five minutes. "Often. She liked it not; we quarreled over it many a time."

[quote_gentle_unquote]

"Mine hated it, too." Susan's tone is only lightly rueful. "But when one dedicates so much of one's life to ensuring their happiness and protection, it's not something that can ever be switched off. I sometimes wonder if they - or at least the younger ones - resented when I started growing in ways they did not understand." For the briefest of moments, she allows herself to remember the look on Lucy's face when she'd mentioned how she first coped with their deaths. Then she sets it aside: there's no point in dwelling.

[timebethine]

"At times ..." Laertes hesitates. He gathers himself as he slices bread and slides it into the toaster. "At times, I think I've tried to be a brother to my friends here. As though I could learn to repair the rifts between myself and my sister, if only I could make Annie or Galahad smile." With some self-deprecation, he admits, "I built a boat for Annie because I wished there was some grand gift I could give Ophelia--a token of apology that might make up for all the times I treated her as a child, and not a woman grown."

[quote_gentle_unquote]

"That seems a perfectly reasonable inclination to me," says Susan, offering Laertes a soft smile that she hopes speaks of camaraderie. "When I see someone or something that reminds me of Lucy in particular, I either turn tail or lose my mind entirely with the urge to do things the right way, this time."

[timebethine]

"I know that feeling well," says Laertes, and he smiles in answer. "Tell me of her? Of Lucy?"

[quote_gentle_unquote]

"Oh, she was the best of us," says Susan, immediately. The kettle is boiling again, so she adds hot water to her half-drunk tea and takes a fortifying swallow. "The epithet the Narnians gave her was 'the Valiant,' and she was bright and faithful and ebullient and good through-and-through. Lucy was everybody's favorite. Peter's, Aslan's... eventually Edmund's. Mine. Magical things always happened around her, perhaps because she saw magic in everything. It could be the dregs of winter, with everything gray and brown all over, and she'd still look at a slant of light through a broken tree-branch and say, 'Look, Su, doesn't that look just like a dryad's arm?' She had even less of a stomach for war than I did, but she was always first on a battlefield after the fighting stop with medicine and soothing words. She wanted to be a doctor or a nurse, if she couldn't have Narnia."